blunders

since adrian has been walking, he is now mastering turning around, bending over to pick things up, and such.  today, my best friend from high school had a baby shower.  i went with my other best friend from high school and adrian.  he was hilarious.  we had quite the fiasco in the bathroom when mommy discovered there was no water coming out of the faucet other than a trickle after i soaped up.  so it took me about 2 minutes to rinse my hands.  meanwhile, adrian begins to play in the toilet.  ahhh, joy.  and before i can get a wipe out once we are outside the bathroom, he is sticking his hands in my friend, maggie's mouth!  wow!  also, he made a major face plant in the front yard in the mud, because it had just stormed.  he is still a little wobbly in grass on a hill.  when i picked him up, i almost peed in my pants from laughing so hard.  he was spitting mud out of his mouth.  these are the good reasons to have kids.  they lighten us up!

party down (finally)

so we finally had the party.  it was all that i hoped it would be.  although, next time, i will keep it just to the family, i think.  it was great to have all my friends and all my family there together, but it was a lot of people!  more than what my tiny cottage can comfortably hold.  34 people, i think.  it may have been more.  but it was great.  and adrian had a great time.  he is such a social beast.  and the cake, well, he ate it up, of course.  none in the hair, though.  better to clean him up afterward.  and all the wonderful gifts that everyone brought.  the slinky dog... awesome, i cannot believe they still make those.  and the mega blocks, always a winner.  the rockin' piano was also a hit.  but the brain mold for future jello projects is the winner.  jess marie, you did it again.  you always give the best presents.  thanks to all.  you are such sweet friends.  how did i get blessed with so many?  the orange gerber daisies definitely tied things together in the color dept.  also, the mobile i made at work, using the computerized mat cutter was awesome.  the animals were super cute.  and publix, with the help of my husband, did a fab job with the cake.  i was still a little sore with them for not wanting to use my imagery from the adorable ikea napkins i bought last pilgrimage.  but i think they did all right, and patrick finished it off with the extra icing they packed for me (for free).  if you ask, they will do it.  the water bird whistles were a huge success.  although i have a few left over.  maybe craigslist? again, happy birthday to adrian vega.  hope your day was memorable and all your dreams came true....

birthday bash postponed

so, i took adrian to the doctor for his 1 year check-up and he had an ear infection and a bad cold.  i had to make that call yesterday and i decided to postpone his birthday for another week.  it sucks, but i want all to enjoy, including my son.  

happy birthday, adrian vega

well, we made it!  he is officially one year old today.  it is amazing to think how fast that went by.  exactly one year ago today, he was emerging from me - well, they used the vacuum - it was not as romantic.  but he was finally here at 4:13 am and i was full of adrenaline somehow after a 27 hour labor!  i couldn't stop looking at him and touching him and was in awe that he was here and that he was ours.  it was what i like to call scary/beautiful.  i cried much those days.  i imagined him getting in his car for the first time by himself at 16 and driving away from me, i imagined him getting married and looking back to blow me a kiss and i just wept.  not even a day old and making his mother cry.  how could he.  his pure existence made me squirm.  i couldn't take it back.  all the blood, sweat, and tears were now a part of my story.  and a new story.  a new life had begun and i was in a super conscious state.  

over the months of breast feeding and pumping and sleepless nights that still come even now, i have come to enjoy my little project.  i have killed cactus, so i was afraid.  but i have done quite well.  i am still breast feeding and have successfully reached my goal, but will continue to follow that path for as long as it will take me.  it has been difficult.  it has been ugly.  it has been wonderful.  it has been sweet.  and as i lay him down this evening and whispered my loving mama thoughts in his tiny ear, i like to think that he knows deep down.  my love for him is endless.  as long as i have breath, he will be etched in my thoughts.  happy birthday, adrian vega...

love and mess

i put a small thing of yo-baby on the edge of the table and ran to get a bib.  when i came back, this is what i found.  he is smart and fast now.  i cannot keep up.